Opening Night

Tonight was the opening night of Joy of Christmas. It was a bit unorganized on the side of my department and I have to admit that I have spent a vast majority of my time in the last week and a half stressing out about things getting printed, getting things on time, things being in order...and guess what? I still didn't have things printed, or things on time, and things were still chaotic.

Ya know whats funny?

I love my job. I really enjoy what I am doing right now which I think is a huge blessing. 

But I have become SO distracted.

Someone made a comment to me about how much I have complained in the last week.

I was actually shocked. I didn't mind the bluntness but I did mind that if it was true, I hadn't noticed. How could I not notice?

I started thinking about the last couple weeks since I have been home.

I have been on a GO-GO-GO schedule, only because I wanted to be. I was working all the time to get things done and I was running on the adrenaline that burning in me.

Well guess what? The adrenaline ran out today and I found myself frustrated and sitting in my chair staring at my computer thinking, "I just want to sleep through this day" and almost crying. That was when I asked myself, 

'Shannon when was the last time you read your bible?'

'Shannon when was the last time you really sat down and prayed?'

'Shannon when was the last time you consulted God for REAL?'

I was really disturbed with myself to find the answers.

What makes me think I could do ANYTHING without Him? I am doing a lot now, but how much MORE can I do with Him? How selfish am I to think I don't need Him for even one day?

Tonight was rough but I had to walk away saying...people were saved. People heard something and reacted to it. They felt God there and even though the fliers weren't printed, and the posters weren't up and the tickets weren't all right and I was frustrated...God still succeeded. Why? Because God always comes through, even when we feel like we have failed.

The good news is, it can only go up from  here.

Praise Him. : )

Shan